Groundhog Day

All of July, Brandon and I have said it's just like the movie Groundhog Day where the same day keeps repeating itself.  I'm pretty sure I could write the weather forecast at this point.  Sunny, hot, maybe some clouds, maybe some storms that will miss you completely or provide exactly five drops of rain.


Everything is brown and dying.  This weather rut has really started to affect everyone.  It's like SADS  seasonal affective disorder syndrome) in the summer not the winter.  During the hottest days, I got to the point where the blinds and curtains were drawn and we sat in the dark trying to stay cool.  I worry about my farming friends and friends and family with livestock and horses.  Will there be enough hay for winter?  Will the entire corn crop be a bust?


In combination with some things I've been going through, I feel like I'm stuck in a rut or in a never-ending cycle.  I think things are changing -- that things will get better, but like the weather it's just more of the same.


"I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake" -Relient K, Be my Escape


The best news is that there is hope even when things are dull or even dark.  Big decisions are in store for me.  Although I'm nervous about them, there is excitement as to what and where God is leading me.  I keep saying I need to pray about my job situation and where I need to be, but I haven't really taken time out to do just that.  God knows where I'm going even if I don't.  I need to get out of my way.  Sometimes I try to hang onto thing way past the time I should have let them go.


This is just all part of my journey to real life.